First day of December = first snow... I hope we get more.

My apartment doesn't heat very quickly. I made some hot chocolate and burned my tongue. Not cool. I ALWAYS burn my tongue. Anyway...

So, I'm learning so many things. I'm learning that to invest myself completely in every person i care about and/or want to help, I leave no room for air. I'm a fixer and a lover. People in my family love deep. So when I care about my d-group girls, and when I spent time with the girls in YoungLife, when I have friends with any problem that they want to talk about... etc. I want to fix it. I try to do everything I can to fix it. I don't try to fix it for the sake of fixing it... or for MY satisfaction. I truly care and want to better the situation... I just get so hung on taking care of things. I over-invest myself and feel out of control. What's I'm learning is that I can't have control. I didn't have control in the first place, I can't gain control, and I never will have control. I'm constantly reminded of God's sovereignty. He's ALWAYS there, paying attention, planning, in control, and in my corner. I let my nature take control and forget that He has everything taken care of. Gosh, I wish I would just let go.

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is holy
Be still oh restless soul of mine
Bow before the prince of peace
Let the noise and clamor cease

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is faithful
Consider all that He has done
Stand in awe and be amazed
And know that He will never change
Be still

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is God
Be still
Be speechless

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know He is our father
Come rest your head upon his breast
Listen to the rhythm of
His unfailing heart of love
Beating for his little ones
Calling each of us to come
Be still
Be still



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I love this song.
"Be still and Know" by Steven Curtis Chapman

I speaks to my heart. I need an everyday reminder that He's God and I'm not. I must take Cate off the throne in my heart and put Christ back on it. It's so easy to sit on that throne. So sinfully natural to sit on my own throne. But it's not my throne. It's His. It's so important yet so difficult let go. I'm his daughter. He is my authority... but He's also the Love of my Soul.

When I think about how Christ is the Lover of my Soul, I recall all the ways He pursues me and makes me feel like He made the multicolored trees and campfire smells just for me. It's such a sweet and intimate love we have with our Jesus. One like no other. I'm terrible with words so I'll put up another song that I just love.


"Everything" by Lifehouse

Find me here
And speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

You calm the storms
And you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart
When you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this

Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything, everything

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better any better than this
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this