Hallelujah

Hello my few followers. haha. This blog is really just for me to get my thoughts out, although I do enjoy sharing with you about how God is working in my life and the lives of those around me. :)

Happy Hump day. Yes, Wednesday. Tomorrow marks the second half of the week. I love Thursdays. I also love Sundays. I also love Saturdays. And it appears that right now, I love short sentences.

I've been working on a song lately simply about the word hallelujah. I was listening to the song "Praise to the Lord Almighty" but the version sung by Christy Nockels. I thought to myself, we sing the word Hallelujah over and over, what does it mean? Without really trying to figure it out, I googled it. (I love that google is a verb now.)   Is means Praise Yaweh. I love that. It is derived from the word hebrew word 'Hallel' (I'm not sure if I got the spelling right) That's the word that I'm looking forward to getting tatooed on my wrist. I just haven't gotten around to it. Anyway, hallel means, among other things 'rejoice' and the definition of rejoice is 'to spin about wildly'. That gives me such an incredible mental picture of the joy that our creator has for us. I have this picture in my mind because he [our God] 'rejoices over you with singing!' Just think. The creator of the universe and the Almighty beginning and end of all things sings and dances around simply because of the joy just one of us brings him.  What a love story.

So many times I remind myself of this picture. I have to. I know the truth, I know in my head that I am far more loved than I will ever know. Yet I feel like I have to prove to people (mainly my dad and family) that I am enough. I feel that way because I, for some reason cannot rest in the security of my God's intimate and perpetual love for me. He accepts me. I must truly believe that before I can be okay with who I am without the acceptance and approval from other people. Until then, I try to prove myself. That's really tiring and unnecessary.

Oh and here's another update. I've decided that instead of going into advertising, I feel like God's calling me to be a Lead Worshipper. More commonly known as Worship Leader. lol. I like the other better though. It's more of how I perceive it. :) To support myself until I find the place where God wants me, I will continue with advertising. I've also decided to attend seminary. I'm so excited about this I can barely stand it! I'm planning on going to Metro Atlanta Seminary. It's a fraction of the cost of other seminaries and I've been told still GREAT education. I've heard amazing things about RTS, but for now, I'm going with Metro. Then, perhaps in the future, I'll get another degree at RTS, if necessary.