Come Thirsty... What i'm reading these days...

TRUST

" Learn well the song of Sovereignty: I know God knows what's best. Pray humbly the prayer of trust: "I trust your lordship. I belong to you. nothing comes to me that has not passed through you."

WORRY is irrelevant and irreverent...

" Worry changes nothing. You don't add one day to your life or one bit of life to your day by worrying. Your anxiety earns you heartburn, nothing more."

"Your part is prayer and gratitude. God's part? Peace and protection. 'If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful then the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.'(Phil 4:7)"

ANGELS

The angels that watch over us are two things: Many and Mighty.

In Psalm 68:17 NKJV, King David writes: "The chariots of God are twenty thousand, even thousands of angels: the Lord is among them as in Sanai, in the holy place." When referring to Mt. Sanai, David was thinking of the time ten thousand angels descended upon the mountain as God gave the law to Moses. 'God came down from Sanai... coming with ten thousand holy angels" (Deut 33:2 MSG)

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I can't wait to get the workbook for this!

I can't get over the fact that at every moment there are many MASSIVE, powerful, and mighty angels hovering over me just watching and waiting for things of and not of this world to come, so that they may fight for me in God's name. Max talks about how angels dance around the throne and and only respsond to Him. He commands them, his army, HE gives the angels charge over us. We have our only personal armies guarding us at all times. While we make coffee in the morning, on the way to work or school, while we sleep, while we work or sit in a classroom, take dance class or teach dance class, in the car toating kids about the city, making dinner, watching tv... everything we do is protected by the heavenly realms. Then I think about when bad things happen. Some people ask why. We can't know why. We just have to trust. Of course we want to know why but that doesn't mean we should. "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans." haha. It's natural to want to know why. We're reasoning creatures, we use logic and equations to figure out the vector of the ball that was thrown with X amount of force. blah blah blah. I'm totally preaching to myself here. When we found out my mom had cancer the first thing that came out of my mouth was, "God is sovereign." I don'tknow how it did, but it did. Then I wanted to know everything. I didn't immediately ask why, but when. How long did she have, what were we going to do to fix it. Could we fix it? No. We could try. If God's got a plan, we can do all we will to change it if we don't like how it's playing out... That brings me back to

TRUST

" Learn well the song of Sovereignty: I know God knows what's best. Pray humbly the prayer of trust: "I trust your lordship. I belong to you. nothing comes to me that has not passed through you."

So many people prayed and claimed that they KNEW she would be healed. She was, at least, not in the way we had hoped for. It's amazing the faith that people have in time of need. The prayer that I was exposed to was far beyond what i had experienced before then. Being a 15 year old and still green in my faith, I prayed but nothing like anyone else. I had faith, but not that he would heal her. I had faith that he could and that he knew what was best even it it meant me losing my mother, my siblings losing their mother, my father losing his wife of 29 years. Those 3 years were the hardest of my life. My dad checked out for a while, I ran from our pain and reality, Will, my youngest brother clung to my dad afraid for losing him also, and David, my kid brother, was filled with anger and hurt. We all felt hurt and abandoned my God. We all expressed our pain in extremely different ways. Our family was falling apart, and at the same time, the strongest and closest we'd ever been. It made me think of how Jesus felt, hanging on tree carved into a cross, dying and left by his father who claimed he would never forsake us. Jesus, cried to his Abba, "My God, my God, WHY have you forsaken me?!" I only had the tiniest taste of that anguish and pain that he felt. God has never and will never forsake us, because he did forsake his son. To put His only son through that: the pain, rejection, lonliness, beating, and even hell, would break a human. Sometimes I think about the judgement that we all deserve and then multiply it by all the people that have and ever will live, that's the pain Christ experienced. Unfathomable.

1 John 3:1 (ESV)
" See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him."

(KJV)
1 John 3:1
Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.

I kind of like the KJV better in this verse. The words, for me, provide so much more emotion to the statement. It's like he's saying, "Behold! Take note, pay attention!!! Look what God has done! He, our Father, has bestowed, presentes as a gift, his love. Perpetual, unconditional love, that we should be called children of God. Heirs to the throne. (kinda, it's not like we'll take over lol...) Princes and princesses of Zion, the Heavenly Realms.


hmmm... oh when that day comes, it will be a glorious one.

Definition: to present as a gift; grant, give


"I trust your lordship. I belong to you. nothing comes to me that has not passed through you."

Class ehk

So first day of classes tomorrow. I have to get up at 7:00 and make sure I get into a certain Drawing II class. yippee! I don't really have much to say right now. This thursday we have our life group again. I'm glad. I love that fellowship.

Learning to Dance (follow)

So I have this friend. She's really into looking for the single guys and hanging out with them all the time. I mean, that's cool. But talking about it all the time, and in front of them is interesting i think. I could just be really rude. eh. I just don't know If I'd be telling all the single guys I know that i want to hang out with them all the time BECAUSE they are single. ha. I might get a weird reaction. I know that it would be nice to date someone. But I'm not actively looking for someone to date. Even though all my friends minus a couple are either engaged or married, I don't feel the need to be in the same stage of life as they. I need to do what's right for me. I'm letting God handle it. Yeah there are guys I know that I wouldn't mind dating or even just spending more time with to get to know them more... but I'm not going to take matters into my own hands. What's weird is that is so different from my personality, which is one that is very dominating and leader-like. I want to plan, take control of a situation if I feel nothing productive is being done. In the business world, if i led a team of people to do something, that would come in handy. Between God and me, not so much. He's the ultimate leader and I have to follow.

A few years ago my dad was teaching me how to dance. Not ballroom or anything. But you know, slow dance. He's a very good dancer. I've got rhythm and have always been able to dance salsa, bachata and other things that require SOME skill. But this was difficult for me. I had to follow his lead. We laughed because is so closely mirrored my personality. I think it's interesting that He taught me how to follow when dancing, and he's done a lot of the same in life. I've had to learn how to follow his lead. Even now that is somewhat of a battle. If we have a tiff, I normally come around a little quicker these days. I remember some of the arguments we've had in the past. Man, God is going to bring it right back and let me experience the hardship of raising me through my kids. I just know it. I'm glad I'm still under his authority. I know I'm an adult and can make my own decisions but I actually value his opinions now. I love listening to his wisdoms and seeking and taking his advice on difficult times. I love that I can talk to him openly and have intellectual conversations but at the same time, be comfortable and/or learn something from him. I'm so thankful for such an amazing father. What I've talked about in this blog has only scratched the surface of what makes him awesome. I'm so blessed to have the relationship that I do with him.